Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Adult ADHD - Why I've Got To Do It NOW!

Many people who know someone with adult ADHD wonder why "those people" have to drop what they are doing and immediately start something new, just because someone mentions that it needs to be done.

Well, I drive my wife crazy with this one all the time. Even when she starts a statement with, "You don't have to do it right now...", or, "Finish what you're doing first..."

Seldom works.

The instant she says whatever it is, I have stopped what I was doing and started on her request.

Why?

There actually are a couple of reasons...at least in my world.

WHAT DOES THE "H" STAND FOR IN ADHD?

Hyperactivity, right?

In a kid, you expect a lot of running around, but, in some adults, at least, "hyperactivity" can simply be the Mad Hatter in your head telling you to "Move along...."

As soon as you add a new item to my "list" of things to do, my brain shoves it to the top, and I feel almost compelled to start on it. Right away!

Another reason, at least for me, is years of experience in the fact that, if I don't do it now, it's going to get lost in the sequence. I may have the best intentions in the world of doing "B", as soon as I am done with "A", but, if "C" comes along in the meantime, I am going to forget all about "B". In fact, I might STILL quit "A" before I am finished and move on to "C"...never mind about "B".

In other words, if I don't do it now, it probably isn't going to get done. Then, I will feel bad at another failure to do what I was supposed to do, and, whoever wanted me to do whatever is probably going to interpret my failure to follow through as laziness, or that I just don't care.

Of course, when I drop what I am doing to do what I was asked to do, I am also failing to complete that task.

If I was doing something for someone else, now they are going to be disappointed. If I was doing something for the person who requested "B", they will not be happy that I completed "B" (or at least started on it), they will probably only be upset that I didn't finish "A".

If I was doing something for myself, I will see not completing my project as a(nother) failure, AND, I will be upset that I was not allowed to complete what I wanted to do.